Monday, September 6, 2010

I'm Nothing (Doesn't matter what 'he' (me) says)

"Dr dulu lg ak ske sgt menipu. Ak sanggup ckap anythin jus 2 get wat i wanted. Anythin, name it-duit, maruah, mainan. Sampai satu maser nie ak da pandai mencuri bak kate org2 tua,'org yg menipu lmer2 mencuri'. Of course, i mean its simple isn't it, ak tipu utk curi perhatian org lik who doesn't unless u hav other reasons 4 menipu (yeah rite gimme a break)."

"Lpas 2 ak mencurik plak.Mcm2 bender yg ak curik duit, stationary n even Pokemon Cards. Mser 2 ak xkire ak jus nk dpt ap yg ak nk dgn jln mudah (at that time i didn't realize that there's no easy way to get money) so ak pown mencurik. Tapi xlmer coz bler ak blaja agama dier kater haram kalo mencurik. Even so, org da cam muker kter sbg penipu n pencurik."

"Yg ak xpasan,effect dier smpai skang. Each time ak menipu, org akan ingt every single word dat cums out from my mouth is nuthin but a lie. Walaupown kalo ak kter ak bukn org kaya. Sumer org akan make assumptions n pkir bkn2 psal ak. Ad yg ingt ak xder prasaan sbb 2 ak ske menipu. Ad yg kter,'ko prcaya la mahdi ckp tuh! xd mknanyer' (even kalo ak kter Burj Khalifa is th tallest building in th world). Yg pling ak kcik ati wen sum1 would think,'doesnt matter wat he says,he's jus foolin around o nta2 ckap je lbey'

"2 me dat is realy mean coz th only thing yg ak rser ak bgus is persuasive talking datz why ak bnyk ckp coz ak suke b'ckp so biler org xpedulik ap2 yg ak kter..its lik tellin me dat im nuthin.
Tp salah ak jgak mayb biler ak bnyak b'ckp lg bnyk ak menipu lg susa org nk percaya kt ak."

"Abis korg nk ak wat ap,keep silence? Only say wen asked? Kurgkn bckap? its lik telling a contractor tuk kurgkn skit bina bgunan 2-xsiap la jdiknye!"

Maybe they're right about me, there must be something that i can change to be a better person. Still, i'm nothing.

2 comments:

  1. rileks mahdi... don't bee too emotional. just remember one thing. setiap kesalahan yg kita buat jika disertai dgn niat ikhlas ign bertaubat, insya Allah Allah akn ampunkan., lgpun, utk apa kte peduli apa yg org lain nk ckp psl kite. adakah dorg bnr2 memahami diri kite? kdg kala kita punya alasan sendiri knp kite mudah berbuat salah. dan itu hny Allah dan kita sj yg fhm. other people, they're hardly to understand us. so, don't be too depressed. u're not nothing but u r something, mahdi.u r special in ur own way just like i told iqah previously. jgn mdh tpengaruh dgn tanggapan org lain trhdp diri kita. ckp skadar kita ambilnya utk dijadikan muhasabah diri. so, cheer up ok? may Allah bless ue.

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  2. thnx a lot zimah, i'll try my bes 2 ignore wat they said

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